Pardon my past

This so tightly strung on my back
This which I forget to unstrap
This which reminds me of where am from

Pardon my past
Judge me not from wrongs I’ve done
pass no sentence for words I’ve thrown
For the pain I behold is
is more than I know

Pardon my past
condemn me not for being alive
Love me if just for being a wife
Trust me just for being a vine
To behold your vybe
and kill the strife.

Pardon my past
That where I tripped and fell
That where I sniffed and felt
It was right to net a lil’ cash
That where I stripped and gained
Spread a little and gained some more.

Pardon my past
Is all am asking for
Give me a chance
to set the record straight
Give me a chance
to prove that i will be
All I was meant to be and more.

Please, pardon my past.

The Orion.

I am not a scientist (and to think I always wanted to be an astonaunt but that was before I got introduced to the performing arts then I realised am better off on earth than on some other planet) so I have no idea how the constellations work/are though I totally love watching the sky especially at night. It took me a whole year to see the fourth star of the orion.*Just found out the orion has 7 most visible stars* No matter who showed it to me i just couldn’t see it. Then on the 31st of Dec , I finally saw it and remembered the hundreds of things that I keep looking so hard for but never find… the solution is so obvious!

Like the fourth star of the Orion,
The logic of the situation eluded him,
Made him have sleepless nights,
Made him wonder deep into the day,
Made him lack reason in a way,
But not to be defeated he still searched,
Deep into his soul,
Ingrained in his memories,
Lay his answer,
The answer he had long sought
And failed to find
That which now tormented him
Made him have wakeful nights
Made him shun out the light
Made him forget his entire self
Made him wish the situation away.
But that was not to be
For in every waking moment
He saw not what he wanted
But all he always avoided
The truth of the matter hit him hard
And now it was time not to hide
With a new sense of hope
Without a trace of dope
He trudged into the future
From a past he couldn’t control!!!

Copyright © Wanjiku Mwaurah

Get away; the magical moments.

The crack on the rock
The smile in the sun
The secrets in the winds
The privacy of the dark
The chirping of the birds
That song of the crickets
The tales of the yester
The mystery of the caves
The span of the hills
The sights of the blue horizon

The joy in the union
The smile of the people
The respect of the youngsters
The sorrow of love lost
The beauty of the send away
The whispers of the villagers
The hope of the children

The shade of the trees
The landscape of the countryside
The tranquility in the air
The solitude on the paths
The peace by the riverside

The joy of discovering
The amazement of finding out
The contentment of having it
This feelings that have
For quite a long time eluded me

Am lost in the revelation of natures beauty and secrets.
Erogenities.

Written after a weekend away from my usual life, travelled to kikambuani in ukambani (Kenya)… It was bliss!
In three days I attended a funeral,witnessed ´hope in love lost´ met people and saw/crossed a river, a ridge and a beautiful nature trail.(read path) listened to noises in the night of crickets as we spun tales of the yester. Magical kenya… Magical moments created.

Flash Crush

Sometimes I fall.. not the christian oriented kind of fall but the ‘falling in like/love ‘ kind of fall that is universal and so …well… universal. This is one of the best falls I get because I rarely hurt… at least nothing physical and most times it’s so fast that I realize I fell when am already up.

*This poem has been performed read out once at poetry@discovery couple of months ago.

I met him once

I barely noticed him

I gave my salutes

And walked off high

I met him again

This time I saw his class

From the coat he wore

And the smile he flashed

This time I saw more than I meant to see

I saw a flirt

Was it his or mine

I saw a blush

Was it felt or seen

He had me confused

In a happy floaty feeling

And that night I knew

I would see him again

Saw a call

I read a message

I saw him at another event

I saw too much

In the way I held to his h and

And the brief kiss afterwards

But I still didn’t say a thing

I saw a call

I read a message

I knew he’d go

Long before he’d known

It really didn’t hurt

Coz I already knew

For in a flash

I’d crushed

On a crush

In a flash

© Wanjiku Mwaurah (2009)